Friday, November 02, 2007

1 infant, 3 diagnoses

i'm feeling lousy today. Like as in depressed down in the dumps gutter sort of feeling. it has to do with my exams and things said about me.

I just finished my paeds posting today. The written exam was a gut buster. I didn't study so much because i was focusing instead for the long case exam. My examiner is the first neonatologist in the country, with 30 years of experience. You don't mess around with people like that.

for my long case,the hospital drs diagnosis was bronchial asthma. I saw the patient 2 days after admission. My diagnosis was viral pneumonia. My examiner saw the kid for just 10 minutes, observed the boy, asked 1 question, and clinched the diagnosis: viral croup. Her question was whether the boy had hoarseness of voice. In just 10 minutes, she observed that the boy had difficulty bottlefeeding while lying supine. He was able to bottle feed after the mother held him in the upright position. Goodness, i am in AWE and RESPECT for the examiner. And honestly, thank god i didn't see the case file the day before exam. If i told her my diagnosis was bronchial asthma, she would probably freak out, because according to her that is way down the list of diagnosis for her. I just love all these lecturers with experience. I hope (and wonder) if i can be like that someday. So good to diagnose and treat patients in just a few minutes. However, my management got zero marks because of my wrong diagnosis. But what i liked about her is that she points out your mistakes and tells you how to improve. Fantastic. I slaved for 4 days just to prepare for my long case
and neglected my saq. The previous groups failure rate was about 60-70% and i already expected myself to fail.

There were 2 questions about neonatology, the other 3 were paeds. and i did fuck up on all the questions. What can i say? i'm not smart enough, with lack of common sense. I put more stress on myself in semester 9 because i have to learn about management, and at the same time close the gaps i still had since semester 7. Sometimes i feel apathetic towards my studies, i'm not sure why and it worries me. I'm just hoping some other people in my batch feel the same way too.

The other thing that REALLY PISSES me off is when some people in my batch think i'm this gossiper who maliciously spreads rumours about themselves and others in my batch. what a joke. To all those people who think so about me, don't flatter yourselves. I don't have all the time in the world to go and dig my head in the sand just to find out all the dirt about you. don't inflate your egos too much,darlings. I'm too busy trying to cope with my studies to think about anything else. nowadays other people know more things than i do. so much for me being a 'gossip queen'.

Want to know what i talk about most of the time? Go to and find out for yourself. Most of the things i gossip about come from this website. I just fucking hate it when people who don't know me at all assume the worst about me.

Im a schizoid

Paranoid Personality Disorder:Moderate
Schizoid Personality Disorder:High
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:Low
Antisocial Personality Disorder:Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:Moderate
Histrionic Personality Disorder:Moderate
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:Moderate
Dependent Personality Disorder:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Moderate

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Damn,i always knew something was wrong with me!!