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Sunday, October 17, 2004

passion of christ

hmm, i just finished reading elena's blog. damn funny la. i also did a quiz about my personality for my month. hmm, quite true also.

today is emotionally draining for me. i went to see the movie, and i finished my packet of tissue. the aura of the movie is not here now, but whatever i saw only enhances my understanding of christ dying, and why i appreciate so much of his love for all of us, and the greatness that only God can have that he is willing to sacrifice his only son for all of us. everytime i see mother mary looking at her son, my heart breaks because of what she has to endure and what she knows must be done. but when i come to think of it, i know why christ does not hate all the high priests. imagine that you were living in that century and you have such small brains/limited knowledge and one so great as the son of god comes and does all those things, you would feel out of breath yourself. and i liked the part where the devil came in, it shows that during the most harrowing time of his life, he could have just given up, used whatever powers he had, and just stopped the whole thing. but he didn't he knew what he had to do, even if it meant being skewered to death. i cried when they started beating him up, and when they nailed his hands and feet. i dunno, its just too much for me to bear. and yes, i cried when i looked at mother mary looking at him.
and i did get a better understanding of judas iscariot. all the while i used to think of him as a selfish, ugly man, but through this movie, i understand, and pity him all the more. and i have now the greatest respect for all the 12 disciples, especially peter, who was crucified upside down for being with christ. i think after this i will have a deeper meaning of the bible as well as a greater awareness of god.

okay, back to the lighter stuff. i am gaining weight, and i cant manage to jog yet, but i have to go the gym one day, if not i'll be fat!!! the onion rings today are nice, i have a fetish for them. and i still think that mcd's burgers are the best. 1 utama rocks, and i have to go back for some serious shopping one day. the sandals they sell there are so neat. and yes, time to buy new trainers too. the cheerleader lost 4kg, and that's nice. what is the point of having imu cup when the only desire is to win and create tension and hatred among other batches? that's the question everyone should have on their minds.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

we won

im quite fedup of my housemates internet connection. i just wrote , and i couldn't pulblish what i wrote. so here i am writing again.

yes, we got second place for the netball team, beating all the teams that have been practising hard, while the only training we got was 15 minutes last wednesday, during which i unfortunately sprained my ankle, making me unable to play yesterday.

all the players were good, and its amazing to see them play. sem 5 as usual were unbeatable, but hey, we can be champions next year. i will also be buying ankle guards to protect my ankle from spraining again. what a bummer.

i have a gut feeling our batch will be second overall this year, whith us winning or being in second or third placing. i do hope track and field will be in next year, cos i'm hoping to join all the sprints. have to buck up my stamina. for that matter i'm glad gi is not so heavy, cos its mostly repetition of sem 1. my mum has been telling me to study a lot , and i just found out that my bro is gungho about going to canada. i'm going to miss him, he's just funny, and i'm gonna be so alone at home. and i can't call anyone a stupid idiot anymore.


my stupid ankle is still sprained, so i can't wear any high heeled shoes. what a bummer, that means i have to wear skirts more often now. i hope it goes away by the end of this week.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

400m

weeell, since i haven't been updating myself on my misery, here's more action from last week. haemato was bad. i think im gonna be a borderline fail again. why is it taht i just can't awnser thani's questions?? study and study but still cannot awnser his questions. sucky, and his q's are gonna come out for the finals. and i haven't started revising for my finals,and i'm feeling so relaxed right now, which is bad.
i twisted/sprained my ankle, and i am hoping that everyting will be okay by sunday. i also want to win, as least getting 3rd placing . i would be so embarassed if semester 1 beats us.
as for the track and field, my batch was last/second last. how embarassing. my 400m got last, and its quited dissapointing cos i thought we could do better than that. hmm.... prof m didnt' finish his race, and is now the subject of ridicule of the guys. i also dunno whether to laugh or to cry at him. the best he could do was to just finish the race, even though he is last. i really admire grace for that matter. heck, even grace can do better than him, and she got the support of the whole stadium.
i really hope we can scrap the track and field event next year, or if we don't scrape it, i'll run for the sprinting events. i found out that i'm still quite fast. pass my semester 3 first, then train like hell.
yesterday i had csu with htin aung. he's good,but he's just too long. and i hope i can do well for my gi csu. have to prod and poke everywhere.
gi has boring lecturers. if only they made the lecture fun, then everybody would benefit.

Sunday, September 26, 2004

homesick

i am feeling that pang of homesickness again. i think i think about home too often. i have to go to my aunt's house once, so i don't feel so bad. the malaysian idols are coming to an end, and i'm hoping jac will win. i hear she has great vocals, and i don't want to be embarassed to be a malaysian at the world idols.
we practiced yesterday at the stadium. surprise, surprise, its actually smaller than the lake, and i can actually finish one round without stopping, and having enough energy to sprint some more! i'm just scared of the other batches, particularly sem 5 and 4 cos they're hellbent on winning. hopefully we can finish third.
today was a boring day. didn't do anything much, and i reread the cleo's bachelor edition. i have to admit zain is really hot,along with jacky. anyone who can breakdance is fine with me.zain is really cute, who knows, maybe someone will put yogibears name in the candidate list next year??
now its time for the throb updates. yogi took part in the relay yesterday, and he looked bloody tired as he finished. we finished fourth overall, not bad. lillian is just too good, and i'm scared taht she may be running for the 400 relay. we also won in the men's football, with soonliang as the hero, but we lost for basketball. anyway, its all about taking part. next monday, our batch will have 4 simultaneous matches. what's this? a conspiracy by sem 5 to undermine us?
i wanted to write a fiery article about my hatred for the terrorists in iraq, but my homesickness blew all that away. anyway, they must be really stupid asses to kidnap their fellow muslims and aid workers because they are the ones who are rebuilding iraq. i hope they get caught soon, and what's with the poor security in iraq. i hate terrorists, they are not human, and i wonder how their god teaches them to behave like taht. or how they feel like cutting another human's head off. do they feel remorse? guilt? or is it just another day's work for them? anyway, i've always thought the world is screwed ever since i was really old enough to think properly. poverty and wealth. if all the billionares contributed half of their money to ppl who really need it, the world would be a better place to live in.i think that's it. its too long. and yeah, i enjoyed my afternoon nap today, weather reminds me of cameron highlands/home

Thursday, September 23, 2004

elliptocytosis

i'm sick of trying to think up cool names for my blog. i'll just go with whatever i remember. yesterday was raining again, and i couldn't do my usual jogging. i went to the stadium to check it out. i keep thinking if i ran, then i suddenly tripped, fell down and collapsed. that would go down in imu history as the crappiest runner. our girls team won the volleyball against sem1 yesterday. 25-5,25-0. amazing! but i pitied my juniors, they looked like they had no energy left. i feel like laughing, but i just tahanlah.
i talked to my mum on monday night, and yes, she did miss me. she even gave me tips on how to run for the 4 by 400. when running, take deep breaths and always remember to extend your legs! i will try my best just to finish the race.
i want to do splits again, i saw aisya doing it yesterday, and i'm so jealous. my flexibility is currently 1%. now, my splits are just 90degrees. its time to flex
the eca was on yesterday, but most of the clubs in imu are so boring. that's why i join the sports clubs. i'm not joining crusaiders anymore cos of rokiah. and the others just don't get my attention.
today will be the squash meeting. i'm happy if i don't get any post/ elected to a small time post

Monday, September 20, 2004

jogging freak

hmm i have already wrote before this, but i dunno why it couldnt be published. i went jogging just now, and it felt great. i managed to jog to the top of the hill without stopping, then going another 3 rounds around the lake. great! now i just have to try to run two more rounds and i'll be set. its a shame i didn't see anyone today, or else my day would have been perfect. the monsoon season is coming, and i can't jogging that often. maybe i'll have to hit the gym now. i hear its been all fixed. great. the last time i went, it was all falling down.
my juniors have been practising hard for volleyball. the crazy gals even practised at 11pm last nite. whew,i just hope my batch can win most of the games. now i understand why when i was in sem 1, i was puzzled at thelack of seniors supporting their batchmates.
i haven't started to practise for netball yet, but i hope we will soon, cos the sem 5 will definitely win this time. they have so many state players. nevermind, as long as i have fun playingit.
it is a pity that tennis is not in. i have to upgrade my tennis, it really sucks. i think my squash is better. honestly. its such a shame. i feel like playing volleyball too, but just for fun. one of these dayslah.. now i have to go back and sit down and look at my notes

jogging freak

yes, i finally went jogging today, and boy, did i work out a sweat! i'm proud of myself cos i was able to jog to the top of the hill without stopping, then doing another 3 more rounds around the lake. notbad. i thot my stamina had decreased. i now know that i have to jog slower to conserve my energy.
i feel so much better after jogging. i have been sitting on my butt the whole day, and i need to move around. i just feel so good now. amazing, my parents haven't called me yet. i guess they either think i'm studying, or they don't miss me. i feel like buying a new pair of shoes when my dad comes. the current ones are getting slippery.

i finally finished watching all 3 of my movies, and of all the village has the strongest storyline. as with m night syamalan;s movies, all 3 require a deeper thinking. but i enjoyed it, and i dont care what the critics say. bryan dallas howard is really pretty, and gives a good performance, and i have always enjoyed joaquin phoenix perform. the story is good, kinda mindboggling, but its understandable why the elders chose to do that.

my next movie is to watch the ghost. i'm told its good. the thai movie really sucked. i expected a lot more from them, cos they are really good in horror movies. today is kinda boring. i didnt see anyone familiar when i went jogging, kinda sad. i'll try to increase my stamina the next time. imu cup is starting next week, and i hope our batch can do well. we should, we've been winners for quite a few sports. i haven't been practising for netball yet. its kinda worrying cos other batches have started practising. i just hope we can win a match this time. haha. i have to get a medal before i go to seremban. ciao!

Friday, September 17, 2004

i love predator

today was one of the most tiring pbls i have ever had. at the end of the session, i just diddnt' know what to do. then when i went to mms,i really could feel my veins throbbing. shit.... so many pictures and they all look the same. haha, at least now i can differentiate what a pencil cell and some elliptocytes look like. i read kalesh's notes this afternoon, and i feel like laughing, cos i don't know what is important. it all looks so condensed. j.z. has a very nice lotr shirt, some more it has legolas on it. now if i were the one to wear it, wouldn't it be nice..

ohyeah, just watched alien vs. predator , wow the neighbour is cooking something really nice. and shit, i can't go jogging again today, gonna rain again. the movie's not as bad as it seems, its okay. this sort of movie is not meant for thinkers, its for ppl. like me who just dont want to think for a short period of time. i haven't seen any of the predator movies, but the predator here was not bad. the scariest thing is his weapons. if i were equipped with those, i wouldn''t have to worry about going anywhere alone. i'd probably even enjoy using those weapons.

i don't think i'm going to go jogginglah. i think i'm gonna watch some more movies. finish the whole thing. anacondas was not taht bad too. the marine guy and his friend is so hunky. hmmm, if only they had more of those guys in imu, haha, my life wouldn't be so miserable after all. come to think of it, there are not many hunky guys in imu.

i dunno what the neighbour is cooking, but it smells really nice. anyway, i just found out about my ex-schoolmates. its unbelievable that cat's married, but then again, i do sort of expect her to marry young. i hope i can get in touch with her and just get to see her kid. unbelievable that so many ppl are living around me. i think i should just go out with them one day, to catch up on old times. amazing still that mary smokes a lot. i wonder why she's trying so hard to prove that she's hip and happening. i dunnno, i still don't like her.

remedial class with achike was boring. i don't think i'll ever go to remedial class again, waht a waste of my time. i'd just revise my subjects alone, but i pity those who have to go, what a waste of their times. hmm, i just realised that semester 3 is the worst of all sems. after that, its basically smooth sailing. hah, i'll just be an absolute nerd for this semester, and then i'll continue my life after that. nvm, its just 3 months. furthermore, i can get to see some ppl. again

Thursday, September 16, 2004

after a long time

hmm, after a long hiatus, i am back to publish my woes and worries....

haiya, today is damn tiringlah. i just had flu again last night , and i'm konked out from the effects of the medication. csu today was fine, at least i remembered something, and today's remedial class was so boring. i don't think i will be going to any more of those in the future.

i'm jogging/walking again today. have to maintain/reduce the amt of fat that i have. but i find that my stamina is getting worse. dunno y, mebbe i'm just more tired these days. my mooncake is going to finish soon, i should have asked my mum to buy some more for me. i just feel like eating the lotus paste mooncake again.

school today is absolutely tiring. i had a lect. that looked just like a teddybear, and he was dressed like it was wintertime
anyway, his lecture was also boring, and the worst thing is some of my classmates walked out on him. kinda kesian, but nvmlah. i'm only playing netball for imu cup. i guess that's enough, what with me having a lack of erg, and seemingly unable to cope with my lect. notes/.

i wished i could've played squash tho. its quite a shame the seniors didn't put it in, but its kinda kiasu for them to do that. just because they can't win, doesn't mean other ppl. can't play. my neighbours are back. hani is his usual self, and kim is busy studying. oh yeah, i dunno when i can watch my dvdslah. hopefully this weekend. get some rest

damn! i'm really tiredlah. i think i'll just walk around the park today.

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

tiring

i have diarrhoea just about now. i'm still trying to figure out what i ate wrong. was it the milk?or last nite's dinner? i played futsal yesterday, but i wasn't in the first team,i feel sad cos they're mostly the good players. kinda tiring yesterday, and i really sweated out a lot. was bloated on water, and had some noodles.

i think i'm kinda good in defending, but i'm not sure. there are alot of other players, and all of us are good. sigh. i hope i can play for the imu cup though.

chronicles of riddick is coming out this thursday. i'm still thinking of whether i want to watch it or not. i have so little cash with me.

i talked to benedict last nite until 2am. talked about world politics, imu and my relationship problem. u know why i never have a boyfriend? it takes too much energy to figure out things and to make things work. i've got more serious problems than that.

exam is just two weeks away and i'm freakin away. i have so many things to touch, and i'd better knock off my sports for a while. don't wanna fail again. there's a lot to learn about pathology tho. its all one confused disease. france beat england. i'll suspect they'll be in the finals. i missed italy playing last nite. but sweden has jon dahl tomasson.hot guy

Sunday, June 13, 2004

what a day

i finally got to woke up late today. well, it was a case of me being scared of the monsters at night. i dunno why i'm still afraid of the dark. its just that my imagination gets really wild.

nothing spectacular in the news today, except that i am disgusted by the pictures of iraqis being tortured. it just violates human nature. ronald reagen was finally laid to rest yesterday.

i'm thinking about the noritta samsudin case. i've decided not to judge anyone, but i just feel sad that her life has been publisiced so much by the press. i think what she does with her own life is private, and yes, there are always two sides to a story.

on another front, i met my aunt and uncle this morning. i can't believe my cousins have all grown up. jasmine is going to enter uni tmr. and boy, am i proud of her. candi and jotik's daughter are also gonna study in upm, and they're taking the same course. looks like i have more ppl. to go out with now. yaay

hmm, yesterday matt smsed me, complaining about his mum bombing him. hey, even my mum talks behind my back. i can't believe she's worried about me being single. i'm not that hot about marriage now anyway. i think i'm being too choosy, but i can't help it. that's why i keep rejecting guys. i figure, what's the point of me dating them, if i don't really like them, and then breaking their hearts? i just can't do that. like christ said, love everyone as if they are your neighbours.

well, i don't have to tell my mom who i date, anyway. its as if i have to be proud that i have a bf. nah...if only i lived in new york,where everyone don't give a damn about anyone else.

i think i should live overseas when i start working. more freedom. of course, i'll miss all the local food.

today its jogging again for me. my friends want to bring me to kfc, but i have to decline. its too fattening. and i am trying my very best to lose some weight. ah, life!

Saturday, June 12, 2004

movie day

hah! i went jogging yesterday, and i feel so unfit. its barely 3 rounds around the park and i feel dead. i slowed my pace, tho, and looky-looky, i managed another round. then i did some crunches to try to flatten my tummy.

took some 100 plus after i went bac,then went out to carrefour where i gorged on mcd's chicken n fries. shouldn't have done that tho, cos this morning i'm seriously bloated :(

tried to study last nite but i was so tired. my roomie came back at 4 after clubbing, and that woke me up. today i couldn't wake up late. i had to go for 1st aid class.i just realised some guys in my class don't look too bad.

tonite, i'm watching harry potter, can't wait to be in the cinema. the next one: chronicles of riddick. cool movie.

can you believe my futsal jersey costs a bomb? the whole outfit costs around 80 bucks, and i hope my mom will pay for it. but i love playing , especially the part of defender. aargh! i gotta exercise, ever since i came to imu, i've been sitting down on my butt every day.

shit!! i found out that i'm not watching a movie tonite. something happened. nah, i'll watch some dvd's . went to my aunt's house to collect my pencilbox. they all thought i was crazy, going all the way there for something stupid like that. but when you're attached to something, wouldn't you do all sorts of things to reunite with it?

ahh, euro 2004 is starting tonite. i feel like watching the match between spain and russia. cute guys alert!

Friday, June 11, 2004

Fridayyy

hmm, today looks set to be a good day for me. i managed to get enough sleep, and i've just finished doing pbl. yesterday was crap,coz i spent most of my time in a daze. today, huh, hafta studylah, cos tmr is a full day, and im gonna c harry potter. the only reason i want to c it is cos it promises to be darker. nvm that i haven't seen the first 2 harry p's.