Battle Royale

i've been meaning to write about this for a long time, but i haven't had the chance to finish watching it until yesterday.

this is a japanese movie which was produced in 2000, and was based on the controversial comic book by Koshun Takami. it is set in the next millenium, when the future japan when unemployement is at an all time high, and when students rebel against everyone. Each year, one class is randomly selected for this. they are brought to an isolated island, where their task is to be the ultimate survivor.

they are given weapons of any kind, including guns, hacks, dustbin lids etc, and the motto is to kill or be killed. the way those students are killed is horrendous. there's also a good dose of romance ( and cute guys ) thrown in. my favorite guy has to be taro yamamoto. he's super good looking. Only one ultimate survivor is allowed. if more than one are alive, they will be detonated by the collar that is attached around their neck. There's also the second series, but its hard to find.

The best thing about japanese films are that they are so creative. i seldom get to watch real jap films, but i have seen a lot of cartoon movies based on mangas. One of the best is Princess Mononoke, and a host of others. For tv watching, it has to be samurai x. The difference with western films is that they do tell a story, but its so dicsrete that you have to pay close attention to the film.

I'm not a really big fan of some of the jap mangas though. There's this one shop in midv that caters to manga fans. some of the comics are great. the ones that i destest are those with their girl characters having abnormally huge boobs. The japs can be creative and perverse at the same time. i do know that in japan, that there are novelty bookshops that cater to those that like to read x-rated stuff (mangas included). And some places in the world that i've been to have these too. Interesting...

The sad thing is that malaysia doesn't really pay much attention to asian movies. i've heard of some interesting films coming from korea too. Sadly , i have to search for the dvd editions to look at some of them.

Movies that i am going to watch are kingdom of heaven and star wars 3. Orlando bloom looks so good in it. i've never seen him being that seductive! and star wars, just to see how darth vader got created. but i do give battle royale 8 out of 10 because its so weird.

This Week...

A lot of funny and humorous insights have happened to me this week. Someone told me a blog should be a mixture of facts, serious stuff and light hearted jokes.So far, mine seems to be a lot of crap. Sorry, but it truly does show my life at the moment. Since i have 20 minutes left to pbl, here we go...

Best encounter: Prof M saw me borrowing the renal book last wed, and called me a kiasu. Ah,what a revelation! An ex-kiasu calling me kiasu. I bet he's already borrowed that book last week.

Weird moment: Toxoplasma covering her face with her jacket and rocking back and forth in her chair during anatomy lecture. i wished i had my cam with me.

Memorable : Me feeling fetus' head and rump while palpating pregnant moms. What a joy to be pregnant :)

Sad moment: Anwar Robinson got voted out of american idol. i was really hoping he would be in the top 3.

Uncool insult: During csu, this lecturer was bemoaning about fat pregnant mothers and the way their fat drops all the way to their side. i feel sick right now.

Weird fact: Zos the 4th hates ass-lickers.
My friend Dee has to dig out pigs for her masters project in zoology.Why?


Worst boyband this week: Blue;they're overrated

Best boyband this week : McFly's "its all about you"

OUch : Cheerleader thought i was in love with da' pimp. i feel sad and bemused at the same time. Might want to sharpen your senses my dear. i am not a cradlesnatcher!!

Most gaya: Prof. Okh looked snazzy with his newly cut hair and yellow banana shirt this week.

Best tv show: Oprah teaching women on how to dress the right way

Only in malaysia: Do i see orange and red coconut trees. Doesn't anybody love green anymore?

Best announcement: My friend is getting married and she's invited me to her wedding!
Now i have to find a suitable baju kurung

Nice combo:carrot juice,apple juice and 1/3 cup of low fat milk

Best sighting : L at rooftop buying lunch

Best day: Thursday. Relax and unwind

New leader: pope benedict the 16th. i hope he won't seggregate the church any further

The Ugliest news: China vs. Japan relations

Only in America: Top notch chefs for dogs

Last but not least....

BEST QUOTE OF THE WEEK: "I 'happen' to be straight" by Cheerleader

Toxoplasma and i are really wondering about this sentence. You readers should too. What does he mean by 'happen'? Another cheerleader mystery, i suppose.

Seremban gynae

The title above is a bit odd, but that's what i've been doing this morning. Whew! what a rush it was. i forgot that my number has changed and that i was supposed to go for clinic visit. its lucky that i woke up early. then, i was supposed to go and help some sem 3 students with their osce, and i couldn't do that this morning. i'm still feeling quite bad over my carelesness.
My weekend was uneventful, i was supposed to go out, have some mud pie and watch Sahara. after all, how can i miss the chance to watch matthew whats-his-name.He's been voted as having the best chest in hollywood. Oh well, i'll just have to watch all those missed movies on dvd. The next big one is star wars 3. i have to watch it cos its the last installment of the series. i'm not a mad star wars fan. i've played the game once, and i liked it.
anyway, for once i didn't waste my time away in the clinic. We had csu session yesterday for vaginal exa,pap smear and antenatal exa. its all so very interesting, and it led me to the conclusion that women, indeed are very complex beings.We get infected by so many types of diseases, and have to suffer so much in the name of pregnancy.i also found out that i'm not fit to be a gynae because i have short fingers. how sad.
Today, i managed to palpate unborn fetuses, and its a wonder. Just feeling for the baby's head and listening to their heart sounds is...just great!!i think i will really enjoy my time in the obs and gynae wards during clinical years. i also found out today that a majority of women usually abort their first fetus. And today also i saw a mute mother with her newborn child. i have never thought about handicapped patients before, and it is an eye-opener for me. her baby was being immunized, and i couldn't stand the sight of her baby being injected. i hope i'll get used to doing that in the future.
The polyclinic was a bit weird. they colored all the rooms pink. Even the curtains were pink!it reminded me of a little princess's room.and i found out, to my amusement, that there are orange and red colored coconut trees along the way to seremban. Maybe seeing too much green is a bore. i don't know.
i managed to search for more of my friends on friendsters,thank god for this website! if not it would be super hard to trace them. i found out that cynthia and jane are accountants, and cynthia's working in pricewaterhouse. good for her. She does look better with her long hair untied too.
And finally, one of my friends from um is getting married. i think its time for them to get married anyway. i hope i'll get invited, its been a long time too since i've seen her and sing lu. i don't like going for my pbl;i have a weird pbl fascilitator.
OH! and i saw lawrence at the rooftop today.sigh

Speedo Lai

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The male mind

As you all know, studying repro and gynae can be interesting or harrowing. i have had the pleasure to experience both emotions during a particularly interesting lecture for epi. The lecturer was in his mode yesterday, and he came up with some ideas of thought that seem to reflect the male mind. i will be quoting him. It may not be precisely what he says, but i'm sure you all are mature enough to understand (are you, cheerleader????)

1. South korean women have the lowest number of breast cancers compared to New Zealand women. This is because they have smaller breasts than the NZ's.

My saying: Now we know a cheaper and healthier way to get bigger breasts : drink new zealand dairy milk!

2.After a woman has had surgery done to remove the breasts, her confidence goes down. this is because there's nothing but rubber left.

My saying: I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry when he said this. But i'm pretty sure my mouth was gaping wide.

3.It feels funny for men to be walking around without two testes, if they have testicular cancer. So far, no self-examination has been created for men and their testes.

My saying: Cheerleader has proposed that he will invent one. I'm patiently waiting.


4. Before marriage, women have nice, shapely figures. After marriage, they look like nice, rounded muffins.

My saying:Bring on the muffins! I'd like chocolate,please.

General Conclusion: Repro brings out the best in men!


Anyway, today we had another interesting lecture, about puberty. And as usual, the female lecturer who was teaching got very high about her own notes. For example, she was laughing and giggling like a schoolgirl when the pic of Andy lau came onscreen.There were other things that she said, but i can't remember. i was too busy focusing on her,ahem, laughter.

i also found out today, that the petals on the rose are a symbol of the private parts of a woman. No wonder there were so many around in the movie American Beauty!!
What i do know is that the oyster is symbolised with the female private part too. I squarely put the blame of this knowledge on my friends who've been feeding me romance novels since i was 13. The shame....
I do remember reading one saucy book. it was called Coffee,Tea or Me, detailing the supposedly true sex antics of a bunch of stewardesses in the 70's or 60's. The book was a bestseller in those days because not only was it about sex, but it also managed to be funny and sad at the same time. The sad thing was that i got caught reading it by my mum, and i got an earful from her. The days of me reading these books are sadly, drawing to an end since i've had enough of near naked men seducing beautiful rich, near naked women! I will be more serious about life and read lee kuan yew's memoir. Perhaps he can teach me to become a good politican one day...

I found out that most men are jerks. A friend broke up with her bf.He dumped her because he was interested in another girl. At a social gathering, he was cozying up to the girl, right in front of the ex's eye. I feel so sad for my friend. She really liked him, and i seriously thought that they would eventually get married one day. I just hope she'll find a better guy next time.

On another note, i'm happy for another friend of mine who finally is in a relationship with the guy that she likes. He's such a sweet guy, the things he does for her during the courtship period makes me feel so jealous! I can't wait to see them, though, when i have the time.

and another thing,i found out that when some guys have competition, they tend to do really bad stuff. what jerks!!

Imu ball

First of all, the photos are already online! I'm happy bcos it took me an hour just to find the correct web host. and its not easy, i tell you.

The ball was great. It may lack in some areas, but its still great. One thing was that everyone, guy or girl looked absolutely STUNNING! I couldn't even recognise some of my friends because they look so pretty. Heck, i couldn't even recognise sharon at first. i'm so not used to seeing her without makeup,so its good to see her looking feminine. Most of the gowns that night were great, and so was the hair and makeup. i didn't see bad fashions, and that is a relief.

The food was normal, i'm glad that i didn't have to suffer from fried rice syndrome again. This is the first ball where i've been served smoked salmon, so its quite a surprise. The funniest food that night had to be scooping up some wan tan ball from some creamy soup. it looks like the ball just drowned and was floating.The other funny thing was this guava dessert which not many people liked. i just ate it because its cold.

The ball was more for sem 5, and its quite sad to see them part. The live band that performed was ok for me;they did a lot of jazzy tunes, though some people thought they were boring. Araving and the cheerleader were the only guys at our table, but its okay when you have two of the most goodlooking guys sitting with you (Cheerleader should be happy with this!!).Eugenia finally found the right cheongsam for herself, and she looked really pretty that night. i love her shoes though.

Yvonne's dress was gorgeous, but i don't know why she covers it up most of the time. And yes, she managed to take a pic with J. Me being the blur one didn't know it was him. Could it be because he's not that hot as he was supposed to be? i'm not sure, though the guy did have a good time taking pics with all the girls. My ratings for j is 6/10.sorry yvonne, he just didn;t rock my world.

On another note, i am happy that i finally manage to take a pic with L, j's friend. And i'm so sad he's going away next month. He didn't dress up, but his character made up for it. He's so cute!!!

The cheerleader and i , for some reason, dressed up in pink. And, most importantly, he was nominated as the prom king. and for some unusual reason too, he gave a funny awnser during the q and a session. But i was glad he realised he is a giant. The title of prom king and queen went to the sem 5s.

Kathryn was a surpise to see at the ball, and even though she didn't wear a gown, she was sooo hot that everyguy in my batch (and others) were queueing up to take photos with her. Cheerleader was in awe of her that night, and so was i. Glad she's going to seremban, will be fun with her.

After the ball, there were 2 other after parties at the hotel rooms. one of them was hosted by kenlin. Mostly the futsal people went;i didn't go because i was just too tired to carry on. by the time we went back, it was 2 in the morning, and it was the first time that i could sit down properly.we came back around 3, cos we took a wrong turning somewhere. Luckily, the cheerleader and lalitha were throwing verbal abuses at each other , so it wasn't so boring. Then, we went to the mamak stall for a while to drink. That also was the first drink we had for two hours.

I felt sad that jenson didn't have a date. But i'm not interested in being his date either. I think jeremy was the most outstanding dresser from our batch. It was a cross between a mafia/pimp. I'm hoping he never gets to read this article or i will be dead!

All in all, i went back to sleep at 5 am on sunday, and i didn't go to church because i would be taking a whole pew for myself to sleep, and that would be selfish. I also went jogging for the first time in 2 weeks,and it felt so good.

Now, i have to get back to my repro notes. its been piling up like crazy.

And the photos i put may not be much;i'll be adding more soon. Some were accidentally deleted from my thumb drive.i have problems adding a link to it from the blog so here's the address:http://www.picturetrail.com/gid7134768.

Cheerleader and yvonne, i think this is an ok site cos its not too fussy. might want to give it a try!

Charisma

Today i skipped malaysian studies, cos i think i'm going to be exempted anyway. But the classes are not bad;even though the lecturer talks nonstop for an hour (really!).
And its made worse when you have a full bladder because it would be so embarassing to stand up in the middle of a class and run to the loo.
The topics are usually interesting, as i am interested in politics. some people may accuse her of voicing her own opinions, but i don't think so. the things she says are true, and i have witnessed it myself during my time in um.
The topics are usually about the special rights granted to the bumiputras, how the Chinese managed to be wealthy, and how the Indians are still far behind. Not to mention the bumis in Sarawak, who were entirely left behind in her discussions, and riling some of the people who think they should be included too.
Anyway, i learned a very important thing about malaysia's first prime minister, Tunku Abd. Rahman. I found out that he was not so scholastically inclined (yay!). It took him 6 years to get his B.A from England. But the man did have one very special thing going for him; he was a people's person and possessed the necessary charm and charisma to knock off people's socks. Incidentally, i would like to add that my brother has this ability too, making me insanely jealous of him.I think i'd just slaughter anyone that gets in my way.
It was because of his charisma that made malaysia gain independence in 1957 rather than 1961 (when Onn jaafar asked the brits). The teacher then went on to say in life, it doesn't matter if we are the most genius people on earth, but what good would it be if we cant interact with people?
I do agree with that, i'm not sure for medical people whether we really need it because there will always be sick people around. But i guess if you have to open your own clinic, its survivability would not only depend on the doc's skills, but also the way he interacts with patients. With this in mind, i will try my best to charm the socks of everyone. Who knows if i were to be a politician in the future??
On another note, i am really grateful to the invention of the Pap smear. Without it, so much more women would be dying from ovarian/cervical cancer. Bless!

sick

I am super sick today, and i feel like sleeping now. i was sneezing like nuts yesterday after class, and it was sort of like a record for me:20 sneezes nonstop.Then last night i went to bed early in the hopes of waking up fresh and healthy, but nooo, i didnt' sleep at all. This is despite me taking 2 panadol cold tablets.

Amazingly, i presevered for csu today, and managed to learn the right way to take a menstrual and obs histories. its rather interesting, i might add. Even as a girl, i will admit its not that easy to ask a woman about her menstrual period.

Today i will pay tribute to one of my guy friends who had the courage, and the confidence to wear a pink shirt to class yesterday. He matched it with a purple tie, and to tell you the truth,it looked very nice. he managed to pull the whole pink thing off too! and in the right shade of pink, i might add.Unfortunately, i have observed that the color pink is not meant to be worn by men. My friend demonstrated an amazing SLOWNESS to my jokes yesterday;it took him a full 5 minutes to understand them. And not only that, the color pink makes him burst into sudden fits of laughter. Which is quite scary when you're sitting 2 seats away from him...all in all i conclude that the color pink is just NOT meant to be worn by men, unless you have nothing else in your closet.

Another obervation i made was that the hot guy J is BIG news in imu. every girl i've met claims that he is the most good-looking, fair, tall, deep sexy voice guy they have ever met! And until now, i have not even seen the tip of his hair. i wonder where is he hiding. His ratings are quite high, garnering 9 out of 10 from most girls. Whatever it is, before he, or i leave imu, i must at least catch a glimpse of him, assess his cuteness, and if i'm lucky enough, get a picture with him. If we have high aspirations, it can be met.

Yesterday, the lecturer herself got quite excited while discussing about the menstrual period and ovarian cycle. i didn't catch the joke, but it had something to do about studying in a girls school (?)

She also mentioned another weird fact:when male athletes are going to participate in any event, they are shown pornographic pictures to stimulate them. What,you ask? Well, that's what she says, and i should be inclined to believe them. Sometimes its hard being a male. You have to do so many things just to achieve glory!My eyes feel like dropping out now, so i must bid you all bye-bye.

Kiasu people

the extremely short topic today is about kiasu malaysians (because i have class in 10 minutes).i am writing this because i am particularly unhappy about the way my photostated repro book just vanished into thin air yesterday.

i was careless enough to leave the book in audi. no wonder i had a nagging feeling something was not right. and there i was, happily watching the simpsons. when i was about to mop the house last night, i then realised i left it in the hall. so there i was sprinting all the way back to imu to get it, only to realise some idiot had already taken it. if someone gives me back the book today i am happy. if not, it just reflects how sad imu students are. we pay lots of dosh to be here, but we can't even afford to photostate our own stuff. Which brings me back to the story of my friend who lost her labcoat at the library cubicle. why anyone would want to steal a labcoat that's probably loaded with tons of germs, saliva and dirt is a mystery to me.
i suggested to my friend that probably the person is a labcoat collector. if not, the person probably thinks that having 4 labcoats is just not enough. one has to have 5, for each day of the week!
i am also happy to report that i have been busy spreading the flu virus all across kl. particularly at the lrt stations and in sg. wang. just doing my duty of being a vector.

My weekend

Ah, now we've come to the real topic of the day.After sadness, there comes light.
And i have exactly 30 minutes to spill out everything.

My weekend was full of old movies and lots of napping (exam aftershock).I woke up on Sat with a nice pounding headache. Thank god i took a panadol and it went away.Went to midv in the afternoon to scour for a dress, then came to the conclusion that i am fated to wear a pink colored one. And i finally saw Jaws 2 for the first time! Exciting? yes, especially that i can't see a huge shark like that in real life. I was being sarcastic.
Wanted to watch movies, but then i was out of cash and everyone was pretty busy.
But i seriously enjoyed my sat night. i was watching david letterman, and he told about the george bush joke.
What is george bush's best pick up line?



Are you from Afghanistan?

I know with the pic above its hard to imagine him being charming with that one -liner, but believe me it was funny.
The next memorable interview was the one where the kumars had an interview with boy geoge. All i can say is that he's shocking.i wonder why he likes to paint his body? but he does have beatiful eyelashes, and he's got nice lips.
The worst was on sunday when i had to return my borrowed books to subang parade and got absolutely caught in the rain. And it is NOT romantic to be dripping wet from head to toe, even with an umbrella for cover. i can only hope the books i borrowed are worth reading.
The last topic for the day is racism.i was chatting to some friends online, when a friend of mine told me she experienced racism, and from the very same girl/people who really wanted to be friends with me. isn't it ironic? it got me really sad because i can't believe some people i know will act like that. I told her either it has never happened to me, or i must be the blurrest person in the planet.And its sad because we all knew each other since we were young.
I don't like things like this being revealed, because now i will see these people in a different light. And she wouldn't elaborate more, but it gave me just enough info to see her schooling days were not happy. Lucky for her she went to another school.
The moral of the day is that people still judge you based on your parents status, how much cash you have, and whether you are socially at the same level with them
if i am angry enough, i might write again about this topic another day.



"Are you from Afghanistan?"

In Memory (2)

I was thinking of startin today's blog by writing nice things, but it seems i can't.
Today's memorare is for my great grandmother who just passed away this morning. And again, i am not that sad that she has to go, rather i see it as a way of going away from her sufferings.
We all call her Nenek Wai. I think she's between 87-90 years old now, no one can really be sure, because during the japanese occupation, they just put whatever age they like for you. For the past one year she had been suffering from Parkinson's disease, and the last time i went to see her in feb, she didn't recognise me the first time (she hadn't seen me for at least 2 years).its scary what parkinson's can do to a person, at times she will be meek as a lamb, at times she can fly into a rage. But it was these past 4 months that her condition got really worse.
I will just remember her as being a really good grandma. Always giving me cash, and telling me all sorts of weird stuff about life. Sometimes, i want to laugh at the things she tells me, not because i mock her, but what she says is truly hilarious (at least for my wacky sense of humor).The amazing thing about her is that despite her old age, she can still walk to the market (about 30mins away) or to my house, which is equally far. If i were her age, i'd just wait for people to come to me.
She was very gutsy, and independent. i guess she doesn't like to trouble people.
But there are other times as well when i feel sorry for her, because some relatives are being nice to her for a specific purpose.
She was married twice, first to a man she didn't like, and resulting in my grandma, and then to a police sargeant a few years later. It also resulted in her giving birth to my grandma's sister. I saw her pics when she was young, and i have to admit both she and her second husband were good looking people.They had a fairly comfortable life, due to her husband's job. After that, my story of her is not known, but i will always remember her as being nice to me and my brother. She really has a soft spot for my bro, he can charm the sock's off any girl!
i'm feeling bad again because i won't be attending the funeral,my dad prefers me not to skip class. Feeling really bad because i haven't prayed for anyone also. Must do it tonight.

In Memory

1920-2005



At 3 or 4 pm this morning, pope john paul the second passed away due to a heart attack and failed organs.I only learned about it this morning when i woke up from sleep.
I'm not that sad about him passing away. Rather, i'm happy for him now that he's in a much better place in heaven. And i'm very sure that during his last moments on earth, he would already have left his physical body for another realm.
i'm not being kooky, just that i truly believe for someone as good as the pope,i'm sure the Lord will give him a painless death.
I respect him for being brave to speak out about things that not only concerns christians, but the whole world in general.He was not only speaking for our behalf, but also for the Lords, and Jesus Christ.And i do agree that there should be respect for all faiths, because which faith on earth truly intructs its followers to kill other humans for fun?
His efforts to bring together Christians from all sects is also commendable, because we all worship one Lord. What is the point of going to church every week, and disliking other christians who are not from the same sect as you?For we are all god's children, and he will provide for us.
No matter what his detractors say, i will respect the pope. can you imagine that you are in charge of 1.1 billion followers of the Lord, and whatever you do or say will have an impact on all of them? Not to mention people who want to assasinate you just because of your religion?
things that he spoke of:family values, anti abortion, inter-racial dialogue,female priests.No doubt times have changed, but in a way i understand his logic for some of the things he has spoken against.The Roman Catholic church is very set in its ways and tradionalistic, and that's why we have different sects of christianity nowadays.
If i'm offending some people , i'm sorry, but i think that's the way i see things.
The world has truly lost a good leader today, a leader that truly cares for all humans on earth, and who has been championing the cause of peace ever since he became the pope. I truly respect the way he's been trying to bring israel and palestine to a standoff.
May he rest in peace, may he always continue to look down upon us, and may the lord help the cardinals to choose the suitable leader for the roman catholic church.

My undue respect also goes to all the priests, monks, brothers, evangelists and the faithful,who try to bring all of us closer to the lord.

And i pray that i will try my best to do something good on earth while i'm still alive.I read somewhere and i do realise that yes, our life on earth is so short, compared to the eterninty we will have in heaven. so, i hope i will contribute to the good of mankind in some way.

April fools

in my previous post, i said that i had to get it out of my system. so here goes.

i saw in national geographic about this european tourist who was holidaying in nepal. while he was ordering his food, the waiter gave him complementary tea, and as he looked up at the man's face, he gave a scream and ran away. the guy wondered what was wrong, as everyone was also looking at him in fear. he asked them and all they said was 'your nose'.perplexed, the man went home to check out the problem.

he stood in front of the mirror for a long time, focusing all attention on his nose. only about half an hour later, he saw this small worm poking its head out of the nose, twitching its head about and scanning the air, before going back inside. the man said ' i swear i saw two little beady eyes on its head'.

he then went to the local clinic, and when the doctor saw it, his face was a grimace of pain. went the worm poked its way out again, the doctor quickly grabbed it, and the man braced himself for the extradiction. the doc pulled and pulled, and it was about 8 or 9 cm long. when he finally got the creature out, it was a leech. apparently the leech went inside this man's nose while he was taking a drink in a stream. he now keeps the leech as a momento of his stay in nepal.

in russia, researchers found that caning patients was a good way to relieve stress. the head of the research, dr. sergei has apparently caned more than 100 patients for this experiment. he concluded that as a result of caning, the patients were more relaxed and their immune system (i think) became stronger. he does not think that it will be a staple for clinics to come, but it would be good therapy for the patients. as for the patients themselves? most of them were averse to it in the beginning, but with time they enjoyed it and even asked to be caned more often.

i'm really wondering if i will ever do bizarre cases like the two above. no doubt the jungles of sarawak will have plenty of cases to deal with, but i would rather pull the leech from the leg/arm rather than the nose.

as for legal s and m? who knows, it might be the revolutionary medicine of the future, and might even put psychiatrists out of work.We might even see it legalised for treating patients in the next 20 years.
for those who are enterprising, now would be a good time to open up a bamboo/rattan factory specialising in canes. i remember in st joe's the headmaster had a collection of canes in various thickness and sizes. the boy who was about to be caned could choose whichever cane that would strike him. the headmaster was gerald lee, and his canes were legendary.
i on the other hand, am wondering if i am sadistic enough to cane patients. what if an old patient wanted to be caned? we should all salute dr. sergei for his impressive research. does anyone want to open a rattan factory with me? i have no problems sourcing them.

and are the two stories above absolutely true, or am i just pulling your legs on this one...happy april fools!

The dress

hee hee, exam is finally over and i'm looking forward to the weekend! i had a row with my mom yesterday, was my fault too, i was too stressed last night. i must say that mum's are a sensitive lot.i hope i don't become like my mom when i am old, god forbid. anyway, things are okay now and she's going back to kuching tonite. which means i have the whole house for myself...

exams were okay, i guess, and i hope that whatever awnsers that i put down were correct. i hate it when i always feel like sleeping halfway during the exams, and because of that i was unable to awnser the part about the gh protein. even though i knew it. Damn!

after exam i went to sg. wang with eugenia to look for that troublesome dress. and i am sooooooo lucky that i've found the one that i really like. the first moment i looked at it i knew that i am going to buy it. there are some things in life that just clicks for a moment, like you knew you were meant to have/cherish/get it, and in this case it was my time. i won't say much about it, just that i think its cute, and you all will just have to wait until after the ball to see it. i just hope no one thinks its a bad color of pink. why pink? for the obvious reason that my blog is also pink.now all i have to do is get matching shoes. i already have all the other accessories. hopefully my mom will give me the cash tonite so that i can buy it tomorrow.

tonight, i'm just going to settle down in front of the tv and watch it nonstop. i hope there are some good programmes on. i'm still thinking of whether i'm gonna see dida n the gang tomorrow, but since i promised them, i might as well go. hopefully i'll get plastered this weekend and have a good time. its unbelievable that the next exam is on 29 april.

we are now entering the reproductive course, the course that gets everyone excited. me, i'm just eager to know more about the defects that can occur in this system. just today, for example, we learned about testes that can never descend, those that are strangulated, and those that are infected. the lecturer was going on and on about how she worked in a sperm lab and that she had to look at it everyday to check for defects. some had two heads, a super big head, no tail, or just a circly tail. and she said that she got so fed up about looking at it. for the very few times in my life, i can't think of a witty line for this. and the worst thing was that she said the seminal fluid was like a gel...or jelly. now in my mind is a picutre of a wobbling jelly, and i don't think i'll look at jelly as food anymore.

being in malaysia is special, as i learned also that different races have different names for that part of the male anatomy. i'm embarassed to say this, but i really don't know what the men in my race call it. sad huh?the commonly used words to describe it are batang, parrot's beak, tweetybird, and others.i expect myself to be working in the jungles of sarawak in the near future, and i'm already getting excited over the prospect of handling fun cases.

its a beautiful day

it is, technically, even though it looks like its going to rain again. my eyes were really swollen this morning, and its either because i took out my lens late, slept late or generally did not sleep at all. i had to help a friend with some relationship problems last night, and my conclusion is that love is all and wonderful but if your feelings are not being reciprocated, life is dull and rainy all year round.

which brings me to the book i've read, the bestselling "he's just not that into you". i read it merely out of curiosity, and i didn't buy it. it took me around half an hour to look through it. even though the back parts of the book are things which are not related to me at this moment,i would say that it is true, in a way, especially when men give all sorts of excuses not to see you. i remembered my friend sort of telling this guy that she liked him, and he told her that he's not ready, just wanna be friends, too young, blah blah.The book also concludes that women, in general, should NEVER go after the men first, regardless of what all the 21st century feminists say. my conclusion? i agree. to save us the ultimate question of 'does he like me' i think we should just let the guys tell us.

i know that there are guys which just can't express themselves, are shy etc (mostly in my case...) but i think that if a guy really,really likes a girl, he will find a way to tell the girl, and if you like him back, life's swell. if not, then you'll have to find a way to break his heart nicely.i've personally never asked a guy out, its usually the other way around, but would i be gutsy enough to ask a guy out? if he was the reason why i can't sleep at night, or why i'm slobbering every time i see him, or just that i feel like exploding when he's near me, sure. i just hope i don't dissolve into a puddle in front of him.

i'm dragging on about relationships cos i got pissed over what my friend told me. i'm thinking that if you like someone and it looks like he likes you back, but then if you make an effort to get close to him and he backs out, it can be depressing.and in my friends case, its sad, because i thought he was giving her a lot of clues and signals. and she told me there was another guy that is also interested in her at the same time, but she chose to ignore him. Whatever it is,i really hope she and the first guy can work it out.if he's just a bag of hot air, then i'm sorry for her.

As a closing note, i've found out that there are tons of books on how to start a relationship, hot to attract the opposite sex, i think we should all let nature take its course ;)

outback jack

since everyone is going to put the earthquake as the main topic for today, i will continue to discuss about my heart's desire-outback jack.

i will confess that i am not a regular follower of the show,i only picked up during the last 5 girls. is it entertaining? yes,it is. i wonder, really really wonder how jack can make up his mind about which of the girls to eliminate after each show. all of them are good looking with hot bods, and i really pity him from that point of view. the episode that stuck in my mind the most was when he had to choose between 3 girls-marissa, natalie and maria.maria was kicked out,and that left marissa and natalie to figt over jack.
Jack IS a hot guy, let me tell you that. i'm not sure if he is academically gifted, but if you do plan to live in the outbacks, jack will make a fine husband. he knows lots of martial arts, does horseback, can climb mountains, and is good with survival skills. having a handsome face, lithe body and dimples doesn't hurt either.
i managed to catch snippets of the finals, and its not that i couldnt watch everything, its because its too toe curling to watch. seeing jack spend quality time with those girls makes me want to puke. i wonder how natalie feels, knowing jack has romanced 11 other girls also, and getting very intimate with marissa and maria on national tv? i wonder how i would feel like if i were in jack's shoe. he's a lucky guy.
well, the last thing i heard was that he and natalie are engaged and are going to live in the us.personally i felt that he made the right choice, cos natalie is more natural,and you know she's not faking her actions and mannerisms.i wish the both of them luck.

okay, as for the earth quake, well it was massive, 8.5 on the richter scale, and yours truly slept throughout the whole thing. whether it was luck/fate that i slept through it, i'm not sure, but i missed out on experiencing one! Vasan said that his apt shook for an entire minute,and he could actually see his table moving. come to think of it, my table didn't move at all. hmm...nah, he's not lying, but i'm now wondering why my table didn't move too. the quake was around 12, i napped, and woke up around 12.30. then i heard ppl calling the radio,telling about shaking apts and houses and ppl getting hysteria and panic on national radio! its a good thing the deejay for the night was calm and composed. penang would be the hardest hit i guess, and in kl, the tremors were very noticable. i guess i'll have to read the papers for the latest. it is also very, very fortunate that a tsunami didn't occur, or else more people would be suffering. and i don't think this will be the last earth quake we'll hear about in a long, long time. the plates are still moving, and i think there will be more to come, on an equally massive scale, in the near future. how scary.

water runs dry

The title above is because of me listening to an old boyz 2 men song that i really liked when i was young. and it got me a bit sad again because at the time the song was playing i opened up the papers and i read an article about the problems of imperovished migrant workers china, and about the migrant worker who died while saving 2 children from a railway track.
it got me thinking of how i take my life for granted, all the things which i have in life but never appreciated them, all the people around me, and all the complaining i like to do about minor things.
and millions of other people about the globe are worrying about things such as when is the next meal going to come, how are they going to survive etc. as much as i dont like migrant workers coming to malaysia, i realise when life is difficult you have to find a way to survive, no matter how terrible the conditions can be.i have never looked straight into the eyes of a helpless person, but i see enough of it in the papers. i am currently feeling like a bad person.

the good news about today? well, when i got up this morning, it was bright, sunny and a bit of nice cool air. i'm geting flu on and off again due to the current rainy season. right now there's an ah beng that just walked into the comp room. the power of hong kong stars and their dressing habits amazes me. just yesterday i went to the park to jog, when i saw this couple. the guy was actually more beatiful than his gf. with his long blond locks, silky smooth face, and nice eyes, he reminded me of that guy from F4. i think its vince or jerry .can't remember.

This week is going to be a busy week. So little time to study, so many things to do. Lucky my mom is going away for the weekend. i can actually go out. Went to church last week and i spotted so many of my classmates. Miss them very much. Joyce shia looks the same,she still looks like she just finished form 5. Dida actually looks the same too, but now she accentuates her figure by wearing body hugging clothing. and she's still the same person. I can't believe i became less dirty minded after i came out of form 5. She was telling me some jokes, and i can actually feel embarassed. i guess the people around me now are kinda decent (or very innocent!)and i dont think i'll ever be the same dirty minded person anymore.I can't imagine what its like to hook up with angie. hopefully it stays the same.

I cant' wait to go out and watch the movies. i haven't been out with anyone ever since we started sem 4. i have to renew my ties with people. There are 3 movies to watch, namely hitch, miss congeniality 2 and robot, with 3 different groups of friends.i especially want to see brenda and marg, haven't seen them for 5 years now. it seems everyone is going back to study again. Brain's going to singapore and dida's gonna do her masters. Joanne chua is on her way to doing her phd. Amazing, just cant' wait to see everyone again.

Last but not least, i am proud to say that i have lost quite a bit of weight. whether i can go back to my form 5 weight is debatable, but i'm quite happy for now. Just need to exercise a bit more and cut down on all those oily foods. Peninsular malaysia has so much nice food, but its full of santan and oil. i now regret not exercising during my uni days. would have maintained my weight then.

the emerging disease

i am feeling better right now, having gotten out of my depression funk. visited the pasar malam last night, and gorged myself on things i havent' eaten in a long, long while. the one good thing about malaysia is the pasar malam. i can't imagine going overseas and not enjoying the food from here. i absolutely love the free standing steamboats and their dips, the satays, the cakes, everything that i want to eat is there.and yes, the everpresent illegal dvd's and their porn material.i honestly thought they stopped selling those blue movies years ago. it is so degrading to see women being treated like that. Especially asian women. it just reminds me that asia is stil a third world country in many aspects no matter what the government claims to say.

anyways, the major topic today is about diabetes. i have seen more cases of diabetes in the hospitals when i went there. if one were to go to a ward, probably 4 out of 10 would have diabetes. and the consequences of having this diesase is severe.Not that other diseases aren't but the effects are so obvious that its scary for me to see.i saw a video about the diabetic foot for an hour today, and i was reminded of my visit to the hospital where i saw many elderly patients with the diabetic foot. to see an ulcerated foot is one thing for the patient, but not to have any sense of touch is another thing. it is also scary to note that diabetes is rapidly rising in many parts of the world.

with this in mind, i am definitely going to change my eating habits. still having the occasional ice cream and pizza, but not so much as before. and the most interesting part is that i haven't been to kfc for two months! its a record, considering i usually go there twice in a month.

today will be epidemiology, and not many ppl should be going for class. i will be going cos i just had my csu practice just now. my blood glucose level was 4.9 and i thought it was kinda low cos i didnt' fast and had two eggs this morning.

exam is one week away and i think i am finally going to the ball. i found out i've lost a bit of weight, but i'm 2 kg more to my ideal weight. i have 2 more weeks to lose it. lets see how it goes.

depression week

this week is the holy week for christians, and what have i done? become an even worse person than i was last year. didn't pray, became a bad tempered person and generally not thinking of christ at all. some more, this is one of times of the year when we're supposed to be closer to god.

the title of my complains this time is appropriate cos it seems everyone around me is in a funk. i myself became depressed and honestly, was really feeling bad until i had to get it all out of my system by scribbling on two long sheets of paper. to put it in such a way, sometimes you want to believe that the world is innocent and nice and smelling of sugar and spice. next thing you know, things are not so clear cut as it seems.

i hate being far away from god cos it makes me a worse person, in terms of how i think and behave. sometimes life is too good to me until i forget that he even exists. Then something has to happen and there i go running back to Him. and i sometimes wished we all were perfect that we all didnt have to hurt each other all the time. Me, i have tons of flaws, but whether i show it or not depends on how people percieve me. Deep huh? Well, sometimes this is the way i think. and its perticularly bad for me last weekend.

on a lighter note, my social life is falling veery fast, cos now my family takes up most of my weekends. exam is on next friday, and i'm trying my best to remember everything by then. She and my bro went to ikea last sunday, and ended up buying a lot of things, and me putting it all together. i don't mind doing that stuff, cos its actually quite fun. then my cousins came, and we all had pizza etc.

i'm really hoping to go out with my friends next week, cos i havent' seen some of them for months. And i feel really guilty about it, cos to them it seems that i don't care about them. just want to go out, update my wardrobe, watch some movies, and have a real gossip session, something which i havent' done for ages.

on a lesser note, life is a continuous cycle. class, lectures, work out at the gym, watch tv, look at notes...blah. can't wait until april comes and i can go back to kuching for the weekend. missing a lot of good food and a lot of nice friends!

about the ball, not sure whether i'm going, cos some ppl say they are, some ppl say they aren't, i don't care. i think i can find my dress one wk before, get some two piece, makeup and hairdo shouldnt' be a problem. i'm just crossing my fingers that the food is good as they say. the last time i went to a ball, i had to pay like nuts and all they served us was fried rice, some soup and normal things. nothing special lah.

anyways i have to go, still have more mails to write...

old friends

It feels so weird to write my blog again after a long hiatus. i've read that often people like to write flowery words in their blog. well, so do i, if i wanted to. i guess its just to have fun with your grammars and anything else we learnt in english tuition a long time ago. i just wished that i took up literature when i was in sec. school. i would have enjoyed that. now, i'm don't read classics cos my brain wants to see more of spy/action novels.

my 2 favourite authors now are clive cussler and jeffrey deaver. and yeah, robin cook for his doctors in trouble novels.i just opened my friendsters just now, and i finally had the time to look at all my old classmates and friends. and i can't believe that all of us are already working/studying, cos they all look so GORGEOUS and i look like i just came out of form 5. i can't even believe its still those same girls i went to school with last time. One thing i'm glad of is that they all have good makeup sense and wonderful dressing. to be a woman, that's the best thing to do, cos everyone grades everyone firstly, on how they look. so, yeah, when i do go back, i'll just have a girls night or something and talk crap until the next morning. hopefully we don't end up vomiting on one another.

the gal whose transformation was so amazing is let tik. whoa, when we were teens, all of us had that boyish crop and being tomboyish. that's the good and bad of being in a girls school. tough enough to fight our own fights, but not feminine enough to attract guys (most of us,anyway).and when i saw her on friendsters, she has become such a beautiful young lady. amazing! sometimes you have to see it to believe it.

semester 4 is two weeks ongoing and already i'm busy. not just with studies, but with clubs, and since my mum is here, i have to be busy every weekend, whether shopping, visitng aunty etc. not that i'm complaining, but my time to see friends will be a bit reduced, especially my st tri friends. i'm really hoping to meet them since a large chunk of them are here.hopefully we'll all just get drunk one of these nights

have i talked about sepet yet? i give that movie an A-, and i didn't know vcd sellers can be hot. well, i'll just have to look at them in a more different light now. but honestly, the movie was good, because its original, unpretentious and its something all of us can identify with. no offense, but i have never watched the gerak khas series in all my life.

the next movie to watch is hitch, and probably robots at the imax. i'm still thinking of going to genting, but with who i'm not sure. the ball is 3 weeks away, and i'm still undecided whether i'm going. and i saw kenlin's hamm jersey, which looks nice to me. well, have to rush now, cos praise and worship has started a long time ago. adios vamos!